Is Our Passion Limited to Public Appearances?
Over the last several years that I’ve been in student ministry, I’ve had many opportunities to sit back and examine my own life, as well as observe the lives of those I’ve ministered to and with. The same question continuously comes up, regardless of the context; “Are you spending time in personal worship outside of the corporate worship time?” That’s baptistese for “Are you worshipping God when you’re alone?” I can’t ever really answer that question with a solid “Yes”. I’m going to be transparent with you guys, because I think it’s important, and because I think that many who are in ministry or are devout to their faith go through the same thought process. I don’t spend enough alone time praising, thanking, worshipping my God. Yes, I said it…
Of course I spend time preparing music for worship sets. Yes, I spend hours studying and getting a sermon or lesson ready. But those times that I’m doing these things are typically fairly academic in nature, and aren’t a time of intimate worship. These times are usually in the office where crying out to God might be a tad awkward and a lot disruptive. So, my personal and intimate time with God gets pushed aside until later, and when it gets pushed aside til later, it often doesn’t get around to happening. At one point this past semester, I’d gone 49 days in between readings in my personal daily Bible plan…ouch. If I’m expecting my students to spend personal time in the Word, I need to be consistent with that and leading out in that area of my life.
I’ve had the opportunity this week to sit back and have minimal responsibility during a student camp. Yes, you read that right, MINIMAL RESPONSIBILITY AT STUDENT CAMP!!! It’s been amazing! On top of that, I’ve had some lingering hoarseness that apparently Google has determined is stage 27 laryngical cancer…or something like that (it’s probably just fatigue or a strained vocal cord, a trip to the ENT will shed some light on this soon). So, my camp week has been fairly quiet and observant. I’ve had opportunities to be intimate with my loving God. But, what have I done instead? In between sessions, I’ve gone and napped (which isn’t terrible on its own), and I’ve watched some movies on Netflix. I haven’t spent nearly enough time in intimate worship of my God. Tonight, I plan on shedding the distractions and making some intentional space to just let God speak. To immerse myself in His word. To thank Him, praise Him, and worship Him for who He is. I am anxious to see how He reveals Himself to me tonight, to feel the refreshment of spending time with Him.
I realized today, that I had let my passion fade a bit. I realized that I’d let being busy push Him out and aside. I realized that I haven’t intentionally scheduled time into my day with Him, not as an obligation, but instead, out of appreciation for His love.
Have you lost your passion? Have you scheduled yourself into oblivion and out of a regular one-on-one time with our creator? If you have, the best time to change that is now. I encourage you to do so, whether it means you wake up earlier than you “have” to in the morning, or forgo watching the TV in the evening after the kids go to bed. Find, and intentionally make that time happen. Discipline yourself to give the One who gave it ALL more than just part of you. As Josh Humbert told our students last night, “God doesn’t do math, He doesn’t do fractions with us. He doesn’t want or require part of our lives, He wants it all!”
Don’t make God do math, that’s just bad theology…lol! Give Him all of you, isn’t He worth more than these daily distractions? Didn’t giving His life warrant more attention than just Sunday morning, Wednesday night, and when we think about it?